Lately, we haven't exactly been all, "rainbows & butterflies".
But, at least we're reassuring things.
PS/ Hug me, Purple. [:
Labels: love.
| hey. |
Shoot me, please. I have insomnia. Greaaaaaaaaat.
Labels: me.
November 25, 2009 | compromise me. |
That's exactly what Im gonna do this holidays!
So, this holidays are basically my last breath of freedom before 2010 starts looming over. Why? Well because 2010 will be my last year in high school, & having said that, I'll be sitting for my SPM examinations. (cue horrific gasps!) So yeah. This two months of year-end holidays is what I truly need.
But, everyone (mainly adults..) has been pressuring me saying that I need to focus on my SPM, that I should revise back my form4 subjects, catch up on whatever I haven't learned, go to tuitions like it never ended, start studying my form5 from now and blah, blah, blah...
But to hell with them!
Im not gonna do any goddamn thing they insist I do! This is my last chance of freedom, & I know once next year starts, Daddy is gonna practically put me on a leash so why should I waste away these two months! I don't care what anyone says, Im gonna have the most fun I've ever had during this hols.
Im gonna go out till late night, Im gonna go to Safa whenever I want, Im gonna hang out like there's no tomorrow, Im gonna stay up late till 5am, Im gonna wake up during the evenings, Im gonna go places, Im gonna watch movies, Im gonna shop, Im gonna have sleepovers, Im gonna sleepover elsewhere, Im gonna do whatever I BLOODY HELL PLEASE.
& ain't noone's gonna say otherwise.
Like th pic said, "Things To Do : NOTHING."
November 22, 2009 | my babies! |
Gah! I miss the triplets so fucking much! )':
I haven't seen them cuties since Deepavali! & I bet they've forgotten us by now. Dammit. Now we gotta start all the way back frm square one! Slowly talking to them , slowly saying hi , slowly hugging them. Gosh! It took us weeks to let them get used to us. /:
Thank God we're gonna see them tomorrow! Had to force/beg Mummy to bring us. I miss them! What can I say? They're my cousins. & we're like, their only cousins. HAHA the age gap does not help AT ALL so we need to be around them as much as we can while we still can, so that they'd get used to us. Who knows, in three years, I'd barely be seeing them? ):
When Im 30 & getting married, they'll just be sitting for their PMR exams.
Ohmygod. -.-
I haven't seen them cuties since Deepavali! & I bet they've forgotten us by now. Dammit. Now we gotta start all the way back frm square one! Slowly talking to them , slowly saying hi , slowly hugging them. Gosh! It took us weeks to let them get used to us. /:
Thank God we're gonna see them tomorrow! Had to force/beg Mummy to bring us. I miss them! What can I say? They're my cousins. & we're like, their only cousins. HAHA the age gap does not help AT ALL so we need to be around them as much as we can while we still can, so that they'd get used to us. Who knows, in three years, I'd barely be seeing them? ):
When Im 30 & getting married, they'll just be sitting for their PMR exams.
Ohmygod. -.-
November 20, 2009 | gah! |
OHMYFROLICKIN'GODDD!
I neeeeeeeeeed to watch The L Word again!
Labels: tv shows
| well its true. |
PS/ What's going on with US?
Labels: love.
| i want, |
I just realized how much I miss pool parties! )':
Lisan has been planning to throw one for ages now, but sadly noone has been cooperating except me! Its been awhile since our gang has had a pool party! Dammit. I want another pool party! I want the fun, I want to throw someone into the pool, I want the excitement, I want the food & drinks, I want the bbq, I want the pictures, I want the fun, I want the wet-ness, I want the jokes, I want the laugh. Gah! I miss it so much!
Hopefully there's a pool party coming up real soon! I can't wait!
PS/ I badly need a dose of "fun"!
Labels: friends, fun, pool parties
| ouch. |
"Do you still love me?"
I love you no matter what, okay.
.okay, what matter no you love I
PS/ That was a very stupid question to ask.
Labels: love.
November 19, 2009 | yummy! |
I would actually be as stupid as Bella just to have Jacob stare at me like that ! )':
I. Cannot. Wait. For. NEW MOON! ♥ ♥ ♥
Labels: movies
| lately, |
"So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge?
My feet run out of ground?
I gotta find my place.
I wanna hear myself.
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me.
Cause I’m just trying to be happy, yeah.
Just wanna be happy, yeah."
Happy by Leona Lewis ♥
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge?
My feet run out of ground?
I gotta find my place.
I wanna hear myself.
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me.
Cause I’m just trying to be happy, yeah.
Just wanna be happy, yeah."
Happy by Leona Lewis ♥
PS/ I fucking love this song. ♥
| kicks for them new kicks ! |
I just wanna say THANK YOU to MY,
best-est-est-est-est-est-est-est-est-est-est
bessssttttt frrrrriiiiieeennnndddd
in the whole wide world
SHARIFAH ALEYSHA
for getting me these awesome PURPLE converse! (':
Iloveyou, kawan baik!
PS/ I heard Leysha had an asthma attack again. NOOO! )':
bessssttttt frrrrriiiiieeennnndddd
in the whole wide world
SHARIFAH ALEYSHA
for getting me these awesome PURPLE converse! (':
Yes, I did sniff the shoes. Yes, I did tear up. Yes, I did try it on immediately. Yes, I did yell in joy. Yes, I did run around the house in them. Yes, I did WANT to lick it, but I didn't. Yes, I did text Leysha saying how much I loved the shoes. Yes, I did openly tell everyone she bought them for me. Yes, I did tell Daddy to not take them outta th box. Yes, I did wear them the very next day I got them. AND. Yes, I did sleep with the shoes next to me. :P
That's much I love the shoes! & my bestfriend. (':
That's much I love the shoes! & my bestfriend. (':
Iloveyou, kawan baik!
PS/ I heard Leysha had an asthma attack again. NOOO! )':
Labels: bestfriends, converse, love
| timing. |
I neverrrrr realized how insanely sexy John Cusack is !
So, I had a very pleasant but unexpected outing with Mummy & Brother today!
Why was it unplanned? Well cause I didn't even know anyone was home till I rolled out of bed at 1pm, to find Mummy & Brother watching tv. While we were all watching tv, Mummy asked, "Wanna watch a movie?". Brother & I exchanged quick glances, & looked back at Mummy. "Seriously?", we both chorused.
"Yeah, its been years since I've taken my darlings to the movies! You guys always leave me & go off with your friends. Geez, Im not even old yet & you all are already abandoning me!", Mummy said.
HAHA I love Mummy's sense of humor. So yeah , we went to Cineleisure & watched 2012. It was such an amazing movie! & it scared me shitless. What if 2012 is really true? Geez, watching the way everyone died, the way the human race was almost wiped out completely, the way everything just fell apart. It was hard to imagine how we can handle it if it really does happen in reality.
Overall , I had a good day. Been awhile since I've gone to the mall with my family. Sadly Sister couldn't join us, or else we would've had a blast together. As for Daddy, well, he hates going to the cinemas. He always ends up sleeping. LOL! Best part about having Mummy around is that I don't have to spend my own money! HAHA I convinced Mummy to buy me a new bag. Yayy! :DD
I love the holidays !
Why was it unplanned? Well cause I didn't even know anyone was home till I rolled out of bed at 1pm, to find Mummy & Brother watching tv. While we were all watching tv, Mummy asked, "Wanna watch a movie?". Brother & I exchanged quick glances, & looked back at Mummy. "Seriously?", we both chorused.
"Yeah, its been years since I've taken my darlings to the movies! You guys always leave me & go off with your friends. Geez, Im not even old yet & you all are already abandoning me!", Mummy said.
HAHA I love Mummy's sense of humor. So yeah , we went to Cineleisure & watched 2012. It was such an amazing movie! & it scared me shitless. What if 2012 is really true? Geez, watching the way everyone died, the way the human race was almost wiped out completely, the way everything just fell apart. It was hard to imagine how we can handle it if it really does happen in reality.
Overall , I had a good day. Been awhile since I've gone to the mall with my family. Sadly Sister couldn't join us, or else we would've had a blast together. As for Daddy, well, he hates going to the cinemas. He always ends up sleeping. LOL! Best part about having Mummy around is that I don't have to spend my own money! HAHA I convinced Mummy to buy me a new bag. Yayy! :DD
I love the holidays !
The Brother & The Mummy. ;) November 17, 2009 | 789. 799. 7109. 7119. [: |
"Has it really only been three months? It feels like forever."
"I know, with the amount of shit that's happened."
789 ; ♥
799; ♥
7109; ♥
7119 ; ♥
Thank you for everything, baby. ♥
Ps/ Im your Turtle now ? :P
Labels: love.
November 16, 2009 | sometimes. |
I think I know too much.
Labels: secrets.
| hello. ♥ |
"What did you say?"
"Oh my God, you're so deaf!"
"Not me! The phone's retarded."
"You're the one who wanted to "fix" the volume right."
I like the way Purple laughs.
I like the way Purple says, "Nothinggggg."
I like the way Purple says, "Tell meeeee!"
I like the way Purple says, "Im sorry!"
I like the way Purple says, "Im hanging up."
I like the way Purple says, "No, don't hang up!"
I like the way Purple says, "I just can't hang up!"
I like the way Purple says, "Tak mauuu.."
I like the way Purple says, "Nevermindddd."
I like the way Purple says, "Its really annoying, y'know?"
I like the way Purple says, "Oh my God, you're so deaf!"
I like the way Purple says, "Yeaayy."
I like the way Purple says, "I don't wanna know!"
I like the way Purple says, "Talk to me."
I like the way Purple says, "Keep saying "Iloveyou" till I fall asleep."
I love the way Purple says, "You're so weird, y'know?"
I love the way Purple says, "That's why I love you."
I love the way Purple says, "Baby."
& I sure as hell love the way Purple says,
"I love you more than you love me, so shut up!"
PS/ This game will go on forever, baby. ♥
Labels: conversations, love.
November 15, 2009 | help. |
"You're really treating your blog like a tumblr now."
Purple said that the other day. & it really got me thinking. Purple's right, I do feel like its becoming more of a tumblr than a blog. & I admit, I do it intentionally. I just don't feel like blogging so much words nowadays.
I prefer keeping my posts short & simple.
As of late, that's exactly how I've been blogging, no? Short & simple. I'd upload a pic. Say a few words, & move on to the next post. I like it that way. To me, it makes more sense than blogging a whole long post. I like summarizing, analyzing & packaging my posts. HAHA sounds funny, but its how I see it.
So tell me, dear readers. (If I even have any :P)
- Should I start a tumblr instead ?
- Should I start a tumblr AND keep my blog ? (NO WAY!)
- Should I delete my blog ?
- Should I just stick to my blog ?
I've no idea & Im currently in dilemma. So I'll need all the help I can get! Please & thnkyou! Do give me your feedbacks on my cbox, or however you want to. If noone says anything, I shall decide for myself, & that means... tumblr on the go. :D
Thnks again!
November 14, 2009 | fantasy. |
Im so sorry, Purple.
But I just want to pour chocolate all over Angelina Jolie
& lick her up!
& lick her up!
Ps/ I still love you, Purple. :P
November 12, 2009 | awww! |
Kaylaah :
good. don't be a doormat. lol.
Vinoda :
Aww, no. Never. I know what Im doing, so yeah. :D
Kaylaah :
good. that's good to know.
Vinoda :
Well, alot has happened since we've last talked. & Im just glad that you're around. (:
Kaylaah :
aww. i'll always be here honey! im just a keyboard away. lol.
Vinoda :
HAHA aww, thnks! Yeah, and one cyberworld away. HAHA.
Kaylaah :
yeah lol. oh hey baby. guess what? i miiiiight be coming down to malaysia real soon!
Vinoda :
OHMYGOD ! WHEN?!
Kaylaah :
haha maybeeeeeee. keep your fingers crossed! :D
Vinoda :
I'll cross my toes too! :D
Kaylaah :
hahaha awww! i do hope i can make it.
Vinoda :
When you're here, you'll neverrr sleep! We're so staying up all night talking! :D
Kaylaah :
awww, that sounds like a lottttt of fun! :D
Gosh , I freaking miss you cousin! ):
I really, really, REALLY hope you do come down! Talking to you online for the past 5 years has been awesome , but I want to meet you in person again. I want to hug you, I want to laugh with you, I want to cry with you, I want to shop with you, I want to do everything with you!
I honestly cannot remember the last time I've seen you. ): I was five, so obviously. It just sucks that you're all the way in New York! I always wish you were here in Malaysia, where you'd be just one phone call away whenever I needed you.
But Im glad we still share things , and its great that you still do talk to me & listen out when I need you. We're so much alike, & I love that. You promised me that you'll buy me things from New York, so Im just waiting ! HAHA.
I honestly cannot remember the last time I've seen you. ): I was five, so obviously. It just sucks that you're all the way in New York! I always wish you were here in Malaysia, where you'd be just one phone call away whenever I needed you.
But Im glad we still share things , and its great that you still do talk to me & listen out when I need you. We're so much alike, & I love that. You promised me that you'll buy me things from New York, so Im just waiting ! HAHA.
"You're like, my favorite Malaysian cousin!"
PS/ I'll be keeping my fingers & toes crossed till the day you actually do come back!
| its not you, its not me. |
If you'd care just a little bit more,
I wouldn't feel this way.
I wouldn't feel this way.
PS/ Im just saying.
Labels: emotions.
| just for kicks. |
(click to enlarge, duhh.)
HAHAHAHA yes, I do make fun of my own height. ;)
Someone, please remind me about this in the future, okay? Im soo gonna need it.
HAHAHAHA yes, I do make fun of my own height. ;)
Labels: laughs
| & then I got high. |
I've been getting high alot on shisha nowadays. :O
Im typing this post while Im still high. I literally do not feel my keyboard & that's awesome. HAHA my keyboard is so fucked up & loud, but for once- I don't feel nor hear it. This is coooool. Okay anyway, don't mind th mindless crapping & spelling errors (if any) in this post because Im just so fucking high right now.
Fact : I like being high. :DDD
Funny moment : "High , not hgih. HAHA ho em gee sayang!"
Fact : I like being high. :DDD
Funny moment : "High , not hgih. HAHA ho em gee sayang!"
So anyway. I just came back from Safa and it was fuuuuuuuuuunnnn ! Ohmygod , I haven't had that much fun all week! Thanks to Joey, Harith, Brybry, Tana, Yana, Jeja & Sheryll for making that mamak session super duper awesome.
That coin flipping game was hilarious, the sniffing of drinks thingy made me laugh so hard till my tummy hurt, the shisha was awesome, the jokes, the laughs, the drinks, the food, EVERYTHING- was just downright fucking awesome.
I can't wait till we do this again! We so should. (:
That coin flipping game was hilarious, the sniffing of drinks thingy made me laugh so hard till my tummy hurt, the shisha was awesome, the jokes, the laughs, the drinks, the food, EVERYTHING- was just downright fucking awesome.
I can't wait till we do this again! We so should. (:
November 11, 2009 | won't you? |
Okay, honestly. Watching "Jennifer's Body" just once is so NOT enough.
Won't someone take me to the movies again?!
Labels: movies
| hey, bestfriends baby. |
"Why didn't we ever hook up?"
"Are you serious?"
"Yeah. Just for the sake of knowing."
"Well, I guess its cause I never imagined myself being with a girl. And when I first met you, I felt something. It wasn't a love type of feeling or whatever. But it was just something different. Way different."
"Yeah, true. Same here. I mean, you're hot & all but I never really felt attracted to you in that kinda way."
"Exactly. So, why the sudden topic?"
"Nah, I was just wondering. Since, y'know, we both seem to understand each other way better than anyone else in our lives. So Im just wondering how come we didn't fall in love with one another?"
"I wonder that too sometimes. But I guess that's the whole point. We understand each other more than anyone else, & we need each other more than anyone. We're meant to be close. We're meant to be bestfriends. That's even stronger than being in love."
"Hell yeah. Plus, being your bestfriend does have its amazing moments."
"Aww, like how?"
"Like when I get to see you naked because you don't mind stripping in fronta your bestfriend."
"HAHAHAH oh my God, Vee! I knew it!"
HAHA! The best conversation I've had in a long time with Leysha. (':
I fucking love you, bestfriend ! ♥
Labels: bestfriends, conversations, friendship
| laugh. out. loud. |
"Ignorance is your new bestfriend,"
-Paramore.
-Paramore.
Indeed it is. Or at least, it has been lately. (:
November 09, 2009 | definitely. |
I'd give anything to hold your hand once again. ♥
PS/ The sneaky things we do, eh Purple? That was fun! ;)
Labels: love.
| eat me! |
How does she manage to still look so fucking sexy even when she's all bloodied up?!
So yes, went to Curve yesterday for Harith's "surprise" birthday bash & to watch Jennifer's Body. But I think we favored Jennifer's Body as a reason for the outing more than Harith's birthday. HAHA Im kidding, Harith! ;D So it was me, Leysha, Yana, Harith, Lee, Joey & Ali.
Met up with Diana, Gaya & Joanne. Aww I haven't seen them since the AAR concert, & I missed them! Then even the boys such as Choo, Loong, Chai, Ikky & Tana joined us. Pretty big group eh? Imagine us in the cinema! HAHA we nearly took up a whole row! That was awesome.
All I have to say about the movies is; Megan Fox, please eat me up. PLEASE!
God, the movie was fucking brilliant! I loved every second of it. And not to mention, Megan Fox was just so fucking hot even when she was eating up them boys. Yes, I think she looked even hotter when she was all demonic & bloodied up. Ohhh my god, orgasm much?! The movie was just brilliant. I loved the concept, the dialogues & the dark humor. A must watch!
After the movie, we went to Teh Tarik place & ate. Then off we went to The Library to watch the talent show, & then we decided to go to TGIF's for dinner. I had such a good time! I just realized how I live amongst a very awesome, fun group of people & every outing with them is just amazing. (':
PS/ I so did not want the movie to end! )':
Labels: outings
| laughs. |
" I have a name lah! "
Its really funny how even my friends are calling you Purple now instead of your name. HEHE Im sorry! :D
Labels: love.
| here we go again! |
Happy Birthday Harith "Sweet Sticks" Najmuddin! ♥
Aww, bestfriend! (':
I can't believe we've only been friends for a year now, it feels like its been ages! I still remember th first time I met you. It was at the After PMR Party 2008, & you were the drummer of the band "My Favourite Tragedy". Strangely, for a bunch of strangers, we all got along soo goddamn easily & we all clicked immediately. That party was awesome, & it made me gain so many new friends that will soon become some of the closest friends I have in life. (:
Harith, there's so much I want to say but I just don't know where to start & where to end. It'll take me ages! But hell , I just wanna say that over this past whole year, you've become one of the closest friends in my life & I fucking love you! Its always a blast when you're around, & you're always so caring towards me it just melts my heart sometimes. (': There's so many memories with you & I just really cannot list them down. They're precious, they're mine & they'll forever remain in my head.
But I know the one memory of you I'll never forget is of 2008's year-end holidays. It was when we first started getting close. (': If Im not mistaken, you & I were the first to get close to each other before anyone else. Well we spent most of that holidays hanging out, getting to know each other more, chatting online till 4a.m. & stuff like that. Those were the times, & I fucking miss that. We're not as close as we used to be, but you're still one of the people I turn to when I have problems. & you're always there for me. Its so easy to trust you. (:
I know last year I did a blogpost for you & said that it was your birthday present. Well this year, you'll be getting a REAL present bestie. (:
Iloveyoudeyy. (:
I can't believe we've only been friends for a year now, it feels like its been ages! I still remember th first time I met you. It was at the After PMR Party 2008, & you were the drummer of the band "My Favourite Tragedy". Strangely, for a bunch of strangers, we all got along soo goddamn easily & we all clicked immediately. That party was awesome, & it made me gain so many new friends that will soon become some of the closest friends I have in life. (:
Harith, there's so much I want to say but I just don't know where to start & where to end. It'll take me ages! But hell , I just wanna say that over this past whole year, you've become one of the closest friends in my life & I fucking love you! Its always a blast when you're around, & you're always so caring towards me it just melts my heart sometimes. (': There's so many memories with you & I just really cannot list them down. They're precious, they're mine & they'll forever remain in my head.
But I know the one memory of you I'll never forget is of 2008's year-end holidays. It was when we first started getting close. (': If Im not mistaken, you & I were the first to get close to each other before anyone else. Well we spent most of that holidays hanging out, getting to know each other more, chatting online till 4a.m. & stuff like that. Those were the times, & I fucking miss that. We're not as close as we used to be, but you're still one of the people I turn to when I have problems. & you're always there for me. Its so easy to trust you. (:
I know last year I did a blogpost for you & said that it was your birthday present. Well this year, you'll be getting a REAL present bestie. (:
Iloveyoudeyy. (:
Labels: birthdays, friendship
November 06, 2009 | Im not a freak. |
Confession time;
I have this crazy fetish for hands & legs. (:
Ps/ Purple thinks its crazy & freaky. Lol.
Labels: confessions
| another birthday! |
Happy Birthday Hassanin Ahmed ! ♥
I soo can't believe you're 20, cause you still act 10! :P
Through out the whole year, I've grown to love you more & more & now, you're one of the closest friends in my life & I trust you dearly. You were always there to accompany me when I was alone, & you always offered to pick me up from places if I didn't have transport, & you forever made me laugh regardless of how emotional I was. Ah, you're so sweet! (':
And I definitely won't ever forget the night you randomly thought of going to Desa Park City, & dragged me, Leysha, Ron & Lee along. WHAT a group, I know! HAHA but I had so much fun that night , especially on our way home when we rolled the windows & sang our hearts out to every song on the radio! It was a fucking crazy night, & I still have th pictures from that night! (;
But lately, we've barely hung out as we don't go to Safa at the same time. I miss you dearly! ): I can't wait to hang out & laugh my head off with you again! & yes, I will sing along with you to every darn song you play on th iPod as its your birthday. :D HAHA!
I love you , Hass! You're like one of the many "Safa brothers" I have. (':
| finally, |
Its been awhile since I went out with my friends.
The other day, I went to Curve with Leysha, Lee, Yana, PW, Harith, Ali, Choo and Tana. It was superrrr fun! The rest of them wanted to job-hunt, some wanted to lepak, & I wanted to shop. So we were basically separated but still bumped into each other from time to time. & we kept going off with another person every time we met up. That was so funny!
But we did have lunch together, & bowl together. It was really fun! God, I missed this so much. I couldn't even remember the last time I went to the mall with my friends! Well Im just glad that the holidays are finally here, & we can all start hanging out like there's no tomorrow again!
Ps/ I still want a purple purse so badly!!
Labels: friends, fun, hanging out
November 04, 2009 | tear my heart open, |
"You stole my heart just by saying 'I love you', y'know?"
Ps/ This time, its fucking deep & its fucking real.
| cottoncandy ♥ |
"Y'know that you don't have to put a claim on me right?"
"I don't care. I still want to. YOU'RE FUCKING MINE."
PS/ This just keeps getting better & better. ♥
Labels: love.
November 03, 2009 | sing until your lungs give out , |
I am soooo proud of you boys, & Im so gonna be you guys' #1 Groupie there, ya hear me!? I can't wait to hear you guys rock out, & Im so gonna scream & sing along till my lungs give out! I still remember following you guys for your second jamming session, & you guys already sounded amazing together !
But most of all, I really am proud of you boys. (': You guys are like my closest guy friends, & I just can't wait to see you guys perform at your first gig together!
Johnathan Lee, I've known you since we were 9 & now you're the lead singer of a band & you're taking centre stage? Fuck, Im so goddamn proud of you, bestfriend. (': You're one crazy & awesome singer, & Im fucking sure you're gonna entertain th crowd!
Joey Khong, we've got so much closer this year & you truly are my Twin. You're gonna rock that stage with your bassing skills , Twinneh! Im so proud of you , & I can't wait to see you play! I've never seen you play on stage! :D
Harith N, how ironic is this- we also met a gig! HAHA aww. I remember having a teensy weensy crush on you just because you were the drummer! Hee go melt other girls hearts like you melted mine okay? But remember, Yana's gonna be there ;)
Shahrul Sufian, you're a total crazy bitch y'kno! You better be as crazy as you are in tuition & jamm sessions on that stage! We've only been friends for a few months now, but Im still proud of you!
But most of all, I really am proud of you boys. (': You guys are like my closest guy friends, & I just can't wait to see you guys perform at your first gig together!
Johnathan Lee, I've known you since we were 9 & now you're the lead singer of a band & you're taking centre stage? Fuck, Im so goddamn proud of you, bestfriend. (': You're one crazy & awesome singer, & Im fucking sure you're gonna entertain th crowd!
Joey Khong, we've got so much closer this year & you truly are my Twin. You're gonna rock that stage with your bassing skills , Twinneh! Im so proud of you , & I can't wait to see you play! I've never seen you play on stage! :D
Harith N, how ironic is this- we also met a gig! HAHA aww. I remember having a teensy weensy crush on you just because you were the drummer! Hee go melt other girls hearts like you melted mine okay? But remember, Yana's gonna be there ;)
Shahrul Sufian, you're a total crazy bitch y'kno! You better be as crazy as you are in tuition & jamm sessions on that stage! We've only been friends for a few months now, but Im still proud of you!
Breakdown Before Breakfast ! ♥ ♥ ♥
November 02, 2009 | turn me on. |
"I want you so badly."
Ps/ We've never been better, thnkyou. ♥
Labels: love
October 30, 2009 | music, |
31st October 2009;
Be there, or be square, losers!
Unless, you want to be square? Then I guess just be there or be triangle or something! Okay, its sooo fucking obvious Im like totally excited right? :DDD Well I am! I can't waittttt. & Im gonna finally meet so many people I've only known online. Like aww. (':
Sore feet? I say bring it. Sore throat? No problem. Sore muscles and aches all over? I don't mind. Waiting for hours? Pfft. Standing for hours? Oh please. Rocking out for hours? Fuck yeah! Amazing time with friends? Totally worth it. Loud, pounding, deafening music? Say what! Rocking bands? Totally into it! Crazy crowd? That's the best part!
Im'ma sleep now, & get lotsa energy for tomorrow ! Hell to the fuck yeah !
| they need not know ♥ |
(click to enlarge , duhh! & look at th amount of likes! :S)
"Why is everyone making it such a big deal?"
"Because its YOU, Vee. Must I elaborate?"
"Because its YOU, Vee. Must I elaborate?"
Labels: love.
| setting it straight, with a curve. |
"How do you know if you're gay?"
"The question is- how do you know if you're straight?"
-Quote taken off the series, South Of Nowhere. ♥
"I think people are born bisexual and they make subconscious
choices based on the pressure of society.
I have no question in my mind about being bisexual."
-Megan Fox. ♥
"Straight people say, 'You know you're just gay,'
and gay people say, 'You know you're just gay.'
There is such a thing as bisexual!"
-Andy Dick.
"You know, gay, lesbian, bisexual - people are people."
-Judith Light.
"Homosexuality was invented by a straight world dealing with its own bisexuality."
-Kate Millet, Flying.
"I think I've always been bisexual.
I think people are born bisexual, and it's just that our parents
and society kind of veer us off into this feeling of 'Oh, I can't'.
They say it's taboo. It's ingrained in our heads that it's bad,
when it's not bad at all. It's a very beautiful thing."
-Bille Joe Armstrong.
"Everyone has people in their lives that are gay,
lesbian or transgender or bisexual.
They may not want to admit it, but I guarantee they know somebody."
-Billie Jean King.
"I was open about it (bisexuality) because I wanted people
to know that I had been with a woman. I spoke about it
because I'd discovered something wonderful and I thought
people should know my experience was very real, very normal."
-Angelina Jolie. ♥
"I love women and men equally and I see people
and love as love, so I think it makes sense that a woman would know
I'd appreciate and love her as much as I would a man."
-Angelina Jolie. ♥
"Honestly, I like everything.
Boyish girls, girlish boys, the heavy and the skinny.
Which is a problem when I'm walking down the street."
-Angelina Jolie. ♥
"At the end of the day, I really like women.
I'd love it if the girls in the cinema watching Lara Croft
find me just as hot as their boyfriends do."
-Angelina Jolie. ♥ (don't you just love Angelina Jolie?!)
"The time has come, I think, when we must recognize bisexuality
as a normal form of human behavior. We shall not really
succeed in discarding the straitjacket of our cultural beliefs
about sexual choice if we fail to come to terms with the well-documented,
normal human capacity to love members of both sexes."
-Margaret Mead, Redbook.
"Don't go straight, go gayly forward."
-Elise Atmaca. (My absolute fave quote! ♥)
This is me openly admitting, I am BISEXUAL.
No, Im not just 'coming out'. I know I've been bi since I was 12 or 13. Everyone does. But now, I don't see why you have to judge me. What's wrong with being bisexual? Eh? Give me three fucking good reasons. Honestly. Or , just one. But you can't now, can you? What, its wrong to love someone of the same sex? Then you're just pathetic, y'know.
Being bisexual isn't "dangerous", or "disgusting", or "fucked up." Being bisexual is NORMAL. You're still human, you still have arms and legs, you still have your senses, you're still fucking you. Cmon, open up. Grow up. Be matured. Be open. Think outta the box. Don't judge. Face it. Deal with it. Embrace it. Get to know it. Familiarize it. Think about it. Learn it. Sense it. Feel it. Trust it. Like it. Love it. ACCEPT IT.
Im blessed to have amazing people in my life who accept me for who I am. I was worried when I first found out I was bisexual about how the people in my life would accept me or treat me. But I didn't need to worry one bit! Everyone has accepted me so gracefully. My bestfriends, my siblings, my seniors, my friends, my childhood friends, my school mates, my tuition mates, my teachers, my day-to-day friends.. EVERY. Fucking. One. So if you can't accept me being bisexual, then you're obviously not meant to be in my life or anyone important in my life at all, right?
So, who are you to judge me again?
Oh yeah, that's right. You're NOBODY.
PS/ Now, kindly fuck off as I have men & women to check out. PEACE! ;)
Being bisexual isn't "dangerous", or "disgusting", or "fucked up." Being bisexual is NORMAL. You're still human, you still have arms and legs, you still have your senses, you're still fucking you. Cmon, open up. Grow up. Be matured. Be open. Think outta the box. Don't judge. Face it. Deal with it. Embrace it. Get to know it. Familiarize it. Think about it. Learn it. Sense it. Feel it. Trust it. Like it. Love it. ACCEPT IT.
Im blessed to have amazing people in my life who accept me for who I am. I was worried when I first found out I was bisexual about how the people in my life would accept me or treat me. But I didn't need to worry one bit! Everyone has accepted me so gracefully. My bestfriends, my siblings, my seniors, my friends, my childhood friends, my school mates, my tuition mates, my teachers, my day-to-day friends.. EVERY. Fucking. One. So if you can't accept me being bisexual, then you're obviously not meant to be in my life or anyone important in my life at all, right?
So, who are you to judge me again?
Oh yeah, that's right. You're NOBODY.
PS/ Now, kindly fuck off as I have men & women to check out. PEACE! ;)
Labels: confessions, love, sexualism
| not good, |
Please let me end today feeling this way, ♥
Ps/ ImissPurple. & I hope Purple feels the same.
| choke on it, bitch. |
Are you fucking blind? Or you're just ignoring all the signs?
Face it.
Labels: anger, anonymous, hate
| addiction ♥ |
There is honestly SO much I want to do, its driving me crazy! I should list them down;
#1; Catch up on all the tv shows/series I haven't watched in AGES!
I've been forced to put on hold all my favourite tv shows/series & its been killing me! But whatever. I just can't wait to catch up on these shows once again! Im gonna spend th whole of November just watching all these shows, day & night til its all done! Just you watch meeeee!
- The L Word ♥ ♥ ♥
- South Of Nowhere ♥ ♥
- Sugar Rush
- Anyone But Me ♥
- How I Met Your Mother ♥
- Sex And The City ♥
- One Tree Hill ♥
- The O.C.
- Gossip Girl
- Pushing Daisies
Labels: addiction, love, tv shows
October 29, 2009 | take me to the cinema , |
Megan Fox. Amanda Seyfried. Adam Brody. Cheerleader. Megan Fox. Girl gets possessed. Megan Fox. Boys getting eaten. Megan Fox. Girls getting eaten. Megan Fox. Lesbian make out scene. Megan Fox. Amazing soundtrack. Megan Fox. High school drama. Megan Fox. Evil. Megan Fox. Murders. Megan Fox. Drama. Megan Fox. Comedy. Megan Fox. Horror. Megan Fox. Stabbing. Megan Fox. Megan Fox. Megan Fox.
Honestly. Need I say more?
I want to watch this & just cry my freakin' eyes out. This looks like a REALLY good movie, & I just love th concept. Love. Time traveling. Deception. Fights. Obstacles. Boundaries. Childhood. Drama. Adventure. Eric Bana. Rachel McAdams. Sigh. Its gonna be SO good! Oh &, Rachel McAdams, be mine! ♥
So, who's up for a movie with me? (:
October 28, 2009 | you are ♥ |
Hey, you.
I think I'll call you purple from now on. ♥
Ps/ YouKnowWhoYouAre ♥
Because purple is my favourite colour, & well, you're my favourite now. (:
| the 27th. |
"What are you thinking about?"
"Im thinking about you."
"And, what do you feel?"
"Love?"
I know "promise" is a really big word. But I honestly don't know what else to say. If I say I'll "try", then that doesn't seem enough, to neither of us. And if I say I "swear", well, that's even more serious than a promise.
So. What do you want me to say?
Yes, I am incredibly terrified of how things might go, of how it might end up again- but Im willing to take the risk. At least Im gonna try. And I want you to try, with me. This may be our third time trying , but hell- y'kno what they say. Third time's the charm.
All I know is, I love you even more than you love me. ♥
"I miss US. I want US. I need you, I love you."
Ps/ YouKnowWhoYouAre ♥
Labels: love, relationships
| butterflies & hurricanes, |
Matthew Bellamy, ♥
Your moaning, your groaning, , your whispering, your screaming, your shrieking, your high-pitched voice, your sexy voice, your low voice, your soft voice, your soothing voice, your electronic voice, your "I-have-no-idea-what-this-is-but-its-turning-me-on" voice, your insane guitar skills, your amazing piano skills, your brilliant lyrics, your crazy outfits, your sexy face, your cute hair, your deepset eyes, your tall physique..
Oh, Im in love. ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
Tell me again , WHY did I stop listening to them? Whatthefuck was wrong with me, I'll never know. Im in the "I-Love-Muse, AGAIN!" phase for now. They fucking rock my eardrums & their music literally puts me into a trance, sometimes. If you don't listen to them , then you officially suck balls. (:
Ps/ Muse, Muse, Muse! I want Matthew Bellamy oh, so badly! ♥
Oh, Im in love. ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
Currently (re-)addicted to;
Tell me again , WHY did I stop listening to them? Whatthefuck was wrong with me, I'll never know. Im in the "I-Love-Muse, AGAIN!" phase for now. They fucking rock my eardrums & their music literally puts me into a trance, sometimes. If you don't listen to them , then you officially suck balls. (:
Ps/ Muse, Muse, Muse! I want Matthew Bellamy oh, so badly! ♥
Labels: love, matthew bellamy, music
| this is me breaking the spell, |
- Lately, I've been feeling extra happy.
- Lately, things have taken a turn for the better.
- Lately, I've been laughing more.
- Lately, I've been smiling more.
- Lately, I've been having fun.
- Lately, everything has been great.
- Lately, hours spent with my loved ones have been amazing.
Lately, I've been feeling good.
"Birds flying high,
You know how I feel.
Sun in the sky,
You know how I feel.
Breeze driftin' on by,
You know how I feel.
It's a new dawn.
It's a new day.
It's a new life.
For me..
And I'm feeling good.
Fish in the sea,
You know how I feel.
River running free,
You know how I feel.
Blossom in the trees,
You know how I feel.
It's a new dawn.
It's a new day.
It's a new life.
For me...
And I'm feeling good.
Stars when you shine,
You know how I feel.
Scent of the pine,
You know how I feel.
Yeah, freedom is my lie.
When you know how I feel.
It's a new dawn.
It's a new day.
It's a new life.
For me.."
Feeling Good by Muse ♥
October 27, 2009 | haunt me. |
"Using me is one thing.
Breaking me down, and tearing me apart-
is a whole different thing altogether."
Sincerely by, Vinoda Ganase.
So. Don't do it. Please?
Labels: deviantart.com
October 26, 2009 | meet vee. |
Y'know what's fucked up? Being in love with someone you can't have.
& therefore, I am fucked up. Hooray. (:
Labels: hurt, love, relationships
| im just saying. |
Y'know, I don't always want to share your joy, too.
Im just saying. I mean, yes, you are my friend & yes, I am supposed to feel happy for you, too, like you always are for me but I just can't. Not all the time. Especially nowadays, when even the slightest things make me want to scream or break down. Im sorry. & Im also sorry for snapping at you today. That was really uncalled for. & all you said was, "Wow." ):
Again, Idk why Im like this. I think its my PMS acting up, or just maybe something is really wrong with me. I just want you to know that I didn't mean to be mean, & I didn't mean to snap at you. Just know that I still do want you around & I still do need you in my everyday life- or else, I'd just die!
I promise, I'll try to be happy for you once again, bestfriend. (:
Ps/ I am so totally treating my blog like a tumblr. Damn. :S
Labels: confessions, selfish, thoughtful
| go pink, ♥ |
No, that's not a controversial picture, mind you.
Sharmila called again today, asking if I was up for another photoshoot/article. This time, she said, its about breast cancer. I immediately think of the pink ribbons & what not. I say sure. She says, "There'll be shots of you self-examining yourself. No faces will be shown! PROMISE!!!"
HAHA I love that quirky reporter! So yes. Im going to be appearing in the newspaper again, & this time, you'll get to see my boobs! HAHAHAHAHAHA. Okay, wait. NOT funny. I wonder what mummy & daddy will say! & my friends. Oh dear lord! I've had enough of them calling me "Toothpaste Girl", & lord KNOWS what they're gonna start calling me this time! :S
Well, Im bracing myself. Im gonna do it anyway. & whyyy ?
Because I support the fight against breast cancer! ♥
Its such a terrible thing to happen to a woman in life. & yes, I AM a sexist, deal with it. I believe in girl power, woman power, & old lady power. I believe women are the better sex. I believe women deserve respect. I believe women are greater leaders of the world. I believe that women should have rights in this world too. I believe women are more complex beings because we're meant to be. I believe women are better, downright. & finally, I believe GOD is a woman. (:
I most certainly do! Well, this time I decided to ask Leysha to come instead cus she hasn't been on the newspaper since ever! Its always been PW & me. Well now Leysha has a chance! Currently waiting for her to come anyway. :DD
So yeah, talk to ya later homes!
Ps/ GAYA, I'll ask the reporter as many questions as I can & pass you the info, okay? Don't worry! (:
Labels: breast caner, photoshoots, support
October 24, 2009 | just how I feel. |
"Me and my heart, we've got issues."
-The Saturdays
Sometimes, Im happy to be distracted. If I did wait for you, it'll be too much to bear.
Labels: confusion, love, relationships
| cheeky. |
Its 1.10a.m. For once, I have tons of things I want to blog about! What a change. But Im still searching for th right contents, so that'll take a while. Boohoo.
Just came back from my aunt's open house. Yeap, its been a week since my open house, but Im still going for others! Imagine that- Indian food, all fucking week! The mutton, the chicken, the fish, the briyani.. Oh gosh. If I were to puke out my whole week's content of food, there'd be enough to feed hundreds of children in Africa! :DD
& now, Im crapping again. That means Im really sleepy. Sigh. & oh! That also reminds me of a joke my friends & I created. Its like, when PW's sleepy- she can't stop talking. When Leysha's sleepy- she doesn't make sense at all. When Im sleepy- I just sleep. (: HAHA!
Well anyway. Im gonna head to my other blog post now! :P
I miss this, so much. I wanna go back! )':
Hopefully those two don't follow in our footsteps, eh Sis? ;)Ps/ Im starting to feel the need to have this, "connection" with my blog again. I wanna blog like I actually talk to my blog, not just posts about things that happened. Hopefully that changes! *fingers crossed
October 23, 2009 | fuck yeah! |
I am sooo totally going for, The All-American Rejects concert!
I can't wait, I can't wait, I can't wait!
They fucking rocked at MTV World Stage and I think they'll definitely rock 18237564 times harder this time! Im TOO goddamn excited. Its gonna be a great concert, especially with great local bands performing too! Ngeeeeee. I don't even wanna bother keeping my excitement on the down low! :DDD
And no, Im NOT going gaga for the concert because of Tyson Ritter. -.-
As a matter of fact, Im getting really fucking annoyed by all these girls who claim Tyson is , "theirs". NEWSFLASH : Hun, he doesn't even know who you are! I don't understand why the fuck are all these girls being such little FAKE groupies for Tyson. What, you just realized how cute he is?
NEWSFLASH, again : He's been around since forever! I've always admired him since I first heard their song , "Swing , Swing" waaaaay back in Standard 4! But now, I just feel like Tyson is so goddamn over-rated. Girls, I get it that he's cute but honestly- just stop "claiming" him because its fucking childish.
So whatever. While almost every single person in the concert are gonna be screaming for Tyson, I kno Im gonna be screaming for The All-American Rejects! They're a great band, and Tyson is awesome too but they're amazing together. Not just Tyson alone, not just the band alone.
31st October, Stadium Putra Bukit Jalil. Seeya losers there! ;)
| don't kid yourself. |
"Its okay, I know you've forgotten me anyway."
Well, why are you complicating things for me again, James? Its been ages since I've actually laid eyes on you and spoke to you. & when we finally do, we end up in a little fight?
Whatever. I won't bother anymore. I already closed you in my life, and we'll remain friends. You weren't even my boyfriend for god's sake, but might as well say you kinda were right? What with everything between us being so complicated & whatnot.. But you're definitely not my first love. That, is someone way more special and amazing than you'll ever be, ♥
I honestly don't know what you want from me, & I don't care because you never will say & Im sick of that. You never confronted anything between us, & I hated that. And no, I do not have feelings for you anymore.
Honestly, let's just remain friends. Awkward as it may be.
"This means nothing to me.
'Cause you are nothing to me.
And it means nothing to me,
That you blew this away.
You could've been number one.
And you could've ruled the whole world.
And we could've had so much fun.
But you blew it away.
You're still nothing to me.
And this is nothing to me.
And you don't know what you've done.
But I'll give you a clue."
Uno by Muse ♥
Ps/ If you want me to do it so much, then maybe I just will forget you. For good.
Whatever. I won't bother anymore. I already closed you in my life, and we'll remain friends. You weren't even my boyfriend for god's sake, but might as well say you kinda were right? What with everything between us being so complicated & whatnot.. But you're definitely not my first love. That, is someone way more special and amazing than you'll ever be, ♥
I honestly don't know what you want from me, & I don't care because you never will say & Im sick of that. You never confronted anything between us, & I hated that. And no, I do not have feelings for you anymore.
Honestly, let's just remain friends. Awkward as it may be.
"This means nothing to me.
'Cause you are nothing to me.
And it means nothing to me,
That you blew this away.
You could've been number one.
And you could've ruled the whole world.
And we could've had so much fun.
But you blew it away.
You're still nothing to me.
And this is nothing to me.
And you don't know what you've done.
But I'll give you a clue."
Uno by Muse ♥
Ps/ If you want me to do it so much, then maybe I just will forget you. For good.
October 22, 2009 | forget friday! |
Like I said, Thursday nights. ♥
Mamak;
Shisha;
Tuition;
Mr.Pang! ♥
The only mean t-shirt that I have ;)
HAHAHA swagger! ;)
Ooohh Sophie, let's go to London, babyyy! HAHA!
* * * * *
Shisha;
Tuition;
Mr.Pang! ♥
The only mean t-shirt that I have ;)
HAHAHA swagger! ;)
Ooohh Sophie, let's go to London, babyyy! HAHA!* * * * *
So, had our English exams today. I do NOT want to talk about it. Such a disappointment, Im so totally pissed at myself. Its English, dammit, ENGLISH! My best subject. My favourite subject. & I can't even write a proper essay?
I went blank. I rewrote my essay like, four fucking times. I tore my papers into little pieces out of anguish. & I wrote a whole page of pure bullshit. I can't fucking take it. I can't believe I screwed up my english paper. GAH!
Next up, even more crappier papers! Booyah , Im soo gonna fail, big time. :S
I went blank. I rewrote my essay like, four fucking times. I tore my papers into little pieces out of anguish. & I wrote a whole page of pure bullshit. I can't fucking take it. I can't believe I screwed up my english paper. GAH!
Next up, even more crappier papers! Booyah , Im soo gonna fail, big time. :S
| i'll remember it. |
"I forgive you. Its not all your fault anyway. Im sorry too."
We decided to forgive & forget. ♥
Im glad we had that talk. Im glad to know you didn't actually hate me, & you still don't hate me at all. I don't know what we are now, or how things are between us but Im just glad that we could forgive each other for our mistakes & the hurt we've caused, & move on from that.
"Ily still, but its like Idk.."
Labels: love, relationships
| to let go. |
Since I never really blog about my life, I think I shall now! :DD
So, finals has just begun. Dum dum dum! Both papers for BM were today. & I can proudly say, I'll fuck this exam with flying condoms! ;) Translation : "I'll pass with flying colours." Duhh, losers. Its a line Leysha & Dee created WAY back in form2! Well anyway, BM rocked! Though I didn't finish my paper 2, question 4 (b) in time. )': Sigh. Well whatever. Still gonna fuck this paper! I know Pn.Zawatil loves me. (':
Other than that, its a Thursday today! And that only means one thing; MATHS TUITION! ♥ But Im so sad. )': This is gonna be the last maths tuition class for the remainder of the year. Sigh! Im definitely bringing the DSLR to tuition, to capture some last pictures with my maths tuition buddies! (':
Im gonna miss tuition so so much & Thursday nights!
For the past four months or so, my Thursday nights have been spent with Joey Khong & Johnathan Lee. (': Since everyone else in the gang decided to stop maths tuition, the three of us remained. So every Thursday night for the past four months have been spent at Safa, mamak-ing & shisha-ing with Lee & Joey & then off to tuition. Thursday nights became one of the most looked-forward to routine for this year. Every Thursday night, something new will happen.
& Lee, Joey & I have bonded so much more closer thru these Thursday nights.
Its amazing how close we've gotten. Thursday nights are usually the nights either one of us will pour out our heart & soul on our latest problem, & the other two will help. I've done it, Lee's done it & Joey's done it. Whenever Im down, sad, feeling shitty or whatever-negative, I look forward to Thursday nights the most with my boys. They always give th best advice, lamest jokes & nastiest comebacks to cheer me up. (':
So with all that said ,
I'll miss Thursday nights LIKE HECK A LOT ! )':
Ps/ I just crap-blogged. BOOYAH! Looks like Im finally living up to my blog's name ae, Viva La Crapola! ;)
October 18, 2009 | the big 1-oh-oh! |
This is my 100th post.
Yes, I've reached my 100th post a few times before- but after much deleting & edits, I went down several times. This time , this 100th post actually means something. I deleted so many useless posts & stuff. Posts that I did when I was still an amateur blogger. (cheh cheh! ;D)
So anyway. I just noticed how I don't really blog about my everyday life. I blog more about my emotions or my memories. My blog is really an emotional roller coaster of words & pictures. That's the only way I can actually label my blog. But then again, emotions change & I change.
But for this 100th post, I decided to do a little something special.
Im going to blog about myself, my life. Not my emotions, or my memories or any of that sort. This time, Im going to blog about something that plays a major role in my life. Time. Yes, time. Time is something we can never get enough of but also don't want it. All my life, time has played a huge part in my life. And why is that ?
Well, time makes me wait.
Everyone knows Im one of the most impatient person on planet earth, & waiting is not something I do too well. The other day, I was just sitting and staring into blank space realizing how I waited for so long for so many things to happpen in my life. & slowly, I started listing them down in my head.
So. Here goes nothing.
I had to wait for 2 years til I could actually start speaking.
I had to wait for 3 years to join pre-school.
I had to wait for 4 years til I found my first ever bestfriend.
I had to wait for 5 years to realize I am Mummy and Daddy's last child.
I had to wait for 6 years to actually start riding the bicycle with two wheels.
I had to wait for 7 years to actually find my first ever best guyfriend.
I had to wait for 7 years to actually travel outta the country.
I had to wait for 8 years to actually stop sucking my thumb.
I had to wait for 9 years to actually find my true best guyfriend, that will still be my friend til now.
I had to wait for 10 years to actually have my first ever group of friends.
I had to wait for 10 years to have my first crush on a celebrity.
I had to wait for 11 years to actually get my first ever enemy.
I had to wait for 11 years to realize that school isn't something I like.
I had to wait for 12 years to leave primary school.
I had to wait for 12 years till I could go to the mall on my own.
I had to wait for 13 years till I actually had my first crush on a guy.
I had to wait for 13 years to find my first ever true bestfriend. ♥
I had to wait for 13 years to realize I am bisexual.
I had to wait for 13 years to find out my passion for something- cheerleading.
I had to wait for 14 years to actually get my first kiss.
I had to wait for 14 years to be able to go out at night.
I had to wait for 15 years to get true friends I've always longed for. ♥
I had to wait for 15 years to travel outta the country again, after a long time.
I had to wait for 16 years to actually enter my first big competition- Cheer2009.
I had to wait for 16 years to actually fall in love, for the first time in my life. ♥
Thinking back, I could only remember these things. Most of which were major highlights of my life , & these are some of the most precious moments that I will never forget. Right now, all I can think of is..
What else will time make me wait for?
Ps/ Happy 100th bloggy! Iloveyouuu :D
| sex me up. |
These women, are my sex.
Maria Mena ♥
Katy Perry ♥
Katy Perry ♥
A Fine Frenzy ♥
Anna Nalick ♥
Beyonce ♥
Britney Spears ♥
Hayley Williams of Paramore ♥ 
Lily Allen ♥ 
Gwen Stefani ♥ 
Avril Lavigne ♥
Carrie Underwood ♥
Missy Higgins ♥ 
Katie White of The Ting Tings ♥ 
Sia ♥ 
Yuna ♥ 
Zee Avi ♥ 
Pink ♥
Norah Jones ♥
Lacey Mosley of Flyleaf ♥ 
Kate Voegele ♥
Meg & Dia ♥
Leona Lewis ♥
Tegan & Sara ♥
t.A.T.u ♥
Kate Nash ♥
The Pierces ♥
Kelly Clarkson ♥
Pixie Lott ♥You SUCK if you do not listen to these amazing voices. ♥
Labels: inspiration, love, music
| so yesterday, |
#begin.confession/
It was the 17th , yesterday.
It would've meant something so special to me, if I didn't go and fuck things up. Like I always do.
Im still so fucking sorry.
But you've heard enough, & I understand.
But you've heard enough, & I understand.
"What the hell am I even doing? Goddammit."
"You're hoping hun. And that's good. Hoping is alot better than nothing. Trust me."
"You're hoping hun. And that's good. Hoping is alot better than nothing. Trust me."
/end.confession#
Labels: hurt, love, relationships
| light those lights. |
Deepavali , has come and gone !
& like every year, my family had an open house! I admit, I went overboard with the invitations. I invited almost everyone I talked to. But in the end, I don't regret it at all ! Everyone who came made my day. It was definitely better than last year's open house. I don't know about my friends, but I sure had fun!
So anyway , there are pictures to continue blabbing for me ;) Enjoy!
She's been coming every year since 07. (':
Choo makan je tauu! :P
My fave boys , Harith , Joey & Lee. (;
Yana & Lee, ♥
Eek Darren! Handsome-nyaaa with his new hair ! ;)
The juniors :P
On the balcony :D
Raided mummy's room :P
Boysss,
Leysha & Yana, ♥
Raping Darren :P
Leeeeee :D
Loong, Fung, Ilya & Chai !
Choo & Harith, ♥
Gotta have a JoLeyVin shot ! ♥
Yana & PW, ♥
Joey & Lee, in my room :D
Hass, Darren & Sanjiv. LOOK AT JIV!HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH !
Aww , Darren! ♥
Its her fifth year at our open house.Love you Lisan! (:
I love my seniors! (':NK, Aisha, PeiTheng, Lisan & Ilya! ♥
HAHAHARITH Indian! :P
We tried to do the "Many Hands" thing :P
Otw to the padang to blow up some FIREWORKS! ;)
At the padang :D
Us with the "white guy" , Ilya :P HAHA!
The Sharifahs belong to me ! ♥ (:
They were there til 2am, AWW (':Well that's most of the pics. Thnks to Lisan, Harith & Leysha for all the pics! Again, I wanna thank everyone for coming. (': The food was more than enough & I hope everyone enjoyed themselves as much as I did !
Ps/ Currently chatting on MSN with NK & Lisan , we're all bored & we wanna go to Safa! HAHA three people you'd never thought would be in a convo :P
Ps/ Currently chatting on MSN with NK & Lisan , we're all bored & we wanna go to Safa! HAHA three people you'd never thought would be in a convo :P
October 15, 2009 | family comes first. |
Im totally grateful to have such an awesome family ! Yeah sure, they do piss me off & stuff but hey- what's a family without any quarrels, nagging(s), lectures, fights & all that shenanigans? :D
So anyway, if you've been reading my blog you'll know that my aunt & uncle from mummy's side decided to take us all (one big happy family!) to some resort in Port Dickson for the triplets' FIRST birthday! & I was too excited. Its been MONTHS since I've gone on a holiday!
& this was truly one of the best holidays I've ever had. But I'll just let th pictures do the talking yeah ? (:
The Celebration ♥
It totally felt like a mini Hawaii, I swear !
Their first time on a beach (: 
One huge happy family (; The Hotel ♥
I finally got to carry her ! :DD
The four of us (me, my sis, Alyssa & Arianne) wanted to stay in one room together, ALONE.But of course our parents didn't allow it & Aunty Aja was forced to chaperon us!
Little did they kno , we'd still have crazy fun with her around ! ;)
Game night ! :P
Fun/Crazy moments ! ♥
The morning after,
AWESOME viewwww !The Beach ♥
Well, that's about it. Of course there are more pics, but I don't wanna upload all of em! So kindly proceed to my Facebook acc if you wanna see more pictures, (:
All in all , this was a superb holiday. I can't believe it only lasted for two days, but I still had such a good time! I finally got a chance to really mingle with the triplets, & I love them so much! (':
All in all , this was a superb holiday. I can't believe it only lasted for two days, but I still had such a good time! I finally got a chance to really mingle with the triplets, & I love them so much! (':
Can't wait till the next holiday! ;)
Labels: family, holidays, love
October 10, 2009 | love lost. |
"Infinity's over now."
Bear with me, please. This is not a hate post or a guilt post.
I just want you to know I understand that you hate me now. I understand that I broke your heart. I understand that I broke my promise. I understand that I can never undo what I've done. I understand that you won't ever forgive or even forget it. I understand that you just don't love me anymore. I understand everything , completely.
I thought we could fix things, but we were too broken.
I just want you to know that I still remember what we had. I still remember our ridiculous fights. I still remember our serious fights. I still remember our inside jokes. I still remember our ridiculous nicknames. I still remember our time apart. I still remember our silly fights on who loved who more. I still remember our promises. I still remember our conversations. I still remember how you cared so much, when I was sick for two whole weeks. I still remember you being loving.
I want to believe what we had was real.
So now. Everything just fell apart, even before I realized it was going to. I know I messed it up for myself, & you have every rights to walk away. Its too late for us to do anything now. You're never coming back , & I'll have to slowly accept it.
I just want to know that no matter what, I still can't bring myself to hate you.
You really are my first love. No matter what happened between us, or what is going to happen, you will always be that someone who actually let me experience love for the first time in my life. You may say that you were lying to me the whole time, & you may laugh at me all you want. I still don't give a fuck, because you meant something to me & you always will.
Don't get me wrong, this is not a closure post.
I will never want to close th chapter of you in my life, EVER. But this is going to be th last post that I'll ever do of you. Why? Because I know you want me outta your life as soon as possible, & just trust me when I say Im trying as best I can. I'll leave you alone. I'll stay away. I'll ignore whatever you want me to.
"I understand 
Bear with me, please. This is not a hate post or a guilt post.
I just want you to know I understand that you hate me now. I understand that I broke your heart. I understand that I broke my promise. I understand that I can never undo what I've done. I understand that you won't ever forgive or even forget it. I understand that you just don't love me anymore. I understand everything , completely.
I thought we could fix things, but we were too broken.
I just want you to know that I still remember what we had. I still remember our ridiculous fights. I still remember our serious fights. I still remember our inside jokes. I still remember our ridiculous nicknames. I still remember our time apart. I still remember our silly fights on who loved who more. I still remember our promises. I still remember our conversations. I still remember how you cared so much, when I was sick for two whole weeks. I still remember you being loving.
I want to believe what we had was real.
So now. Everything just fell apart, even before I realized it was going to. I know I messed it up for myself, & you have every rights to walk away. Its too late for us to do anything now. You're never coming back , & I'll have to slowly accept it.
I just want to know that no matter what, I still can't bring myself to hate you.
You really are my first love. No matter what happened between us, or what is going to happen, you will always be that someone who actually let me experience love for the first time in my life. You may say that you were lying to me the whole time, & you may laugh at me all you want. I still don't give a fuck, because you meant something to me & you always will.
Don't get me wrong, this is not a closure post.
I will never want to close th chapter of you in my life, EVER. But this is going to be th last post that I'll ever do of you. Why? Because I know you want me outta your life as soon as possible, & just trust me when I say Im trying as best I can. I'll leave you alone. I'll stay away. I'll ignore whatever you want me to.
Your need to switch the roles around
And despise me for the
Fact that we didn't last
And I'll be your punching bag
If you'll stay in my past.
I understand
To want to have a mature dialogue
Is too much to ask
and I'll be your one regret
If you'll stay in my past.
I understand
That we can never speak again
And your resentment towards me
Will last
And I will let you forget me
If you'll stay in my past..
So. Please stay in my past.."
If You'll Stay In My Past by Maria Mena ♥
Ps/ I'll force myself to believe its over, just for you. (:
| heck yes! |
"Just prepare props,
Or even your quirky behaviour is good enough!"
Guess who called?!
Sharmila Nair, from the STAR newspaper! She wants to do another photoshoot with me, PW & Leysha. This time, the topic is about "Weird Behaviours" , whatever that means! Hee. Sadly, Leysha couldn't make it. ): But Sheryll came instead so it was still fun! ♥
I can't wait! Its been months since our last photoshoot & its been ages since I saw Sharmila. I saw her at Cheer, but we didnt get to talk. We just waved at each other & she wished me luck. (:
So finally !
Something exciting for me. Heh. This is going to be a REALLY good weekend because fr tmrw and Monday, I'll be at PD with the family & relatives from mummy's side for the triplet's one year old birthday! Can't wait. We're gonna stay at this five-star hotel & stuff, & there's so much to do!
Im just soo happy I'll be gone for even a weekend. Its been ages since I've had a proper holiday. gaahh! & I miss going places with the family. So a photoshoot on a Saturday & a weekend getaway to PD with luxuries awaiting...?
If I were Islam, I think this is the most appropriate time to say "Alhamdulillah!" ;)
So can't wait to spend a weekend away with them! ♥
Ps/ Shall miss my friends, Safa, bloggy & Facebook! ):
Labels: friends, fun, getaways, photoshoots
October 06, 2009 | we are family! |
Spent some quality time with the siblings today! :DDD
Shopping with Sister was super fun, & its amazing how we seem to agree on things when it comes to clothes. ;) And helping Brother shop was just hilarious! That boy is too darn lazy to ever bother to shop. But thankgod Darren helped him out & so did us girls. Brother has two new t-shirts now! *claps
I love my siblings to death, & today was just another great memory that will remain in my head.
Time spent with my siblings seem to be much shorter nowadays, as we're all growing up & busy with our stuff. High school, college & university. We're barely at home & whenever we are, we'll be in our rooms doing our own things.
I miss those days when we sat at the kitchen table till 2a.m. or whatever, just talking about the dumbest things ever. Im closer to Sister, & we share our personal problems. Brother isn't that open to us, but he listens & still gives his fair share of advice or stories.
Conversations over the kitchen table will always be so memorable. We would talk about anything, laugh about anything, joke about anything and what not. We still have those talks sometimes, though they're rare. I treasure it more now, knowing that someday we'll never end up at the kitchen table again laughing over how Brother makes fun of Sister.
Im grateful to have my siblings in my life, & in the house. Without them, life would be dull & just too darn miserable. Yeah, sure we have our moments. We fight. We annoy one another. We ignore each other. We're too busy. We don't agree on things.
But hey, aren't every family like that?
Labels: family, love, memories
October 04, 2009 | where do I go to fall from grace? |
Nicely said, Caryn Khoo. ♥
Labels: emotions, love, quotes
| i can't do it. |
"Eat, Vee."
"Please eat."
"Have you even been eating lately?"
"You look like a stick now."
"What the hell happened to you?"
"What is wrong with you?"
"You can't do this to yourself."
"Force yourself to eat!"
"Im gonna keep asking, til you actually say YES."
"Jangan lah sampai tak makan, sayang."
"Oh my, you did lose weight!"
"Something's wrong with you."
"Go and eat, PLEASE."
"You need help."
"You look like a stick now."
"What the hell happened to you?"
"What is wrong with you?"
"You can't do this to yourself."
"Force yourself to eat!"
"Im gonna keep asking, til you actually say YES."
"Jangan lah sampai tak makan, sayang."
"Oh my, you did lose weight!"
"Something's wrong with you."
"You'll soon disappear into thin air if you keep this up!"
"Go and eat, PLEASE."
"You need help."
"Health check, meet Vee. Vee, meet health check."
"Just take extra f***king care of yourself!"
"Just eat, for god's sake!"
"Eat. Eat. Eat. Eat. EAT!"
I don't mean to make you all worry. :S
October 02, 2009 | of meals and puke, |
"Have you even been eating lately?"
I sat up in mummy's bed while cracking my back, neck, knuckles & everything (terrible habit of mine!), Mummy & Daddy stand around just staring right at me. Their faces has the word "concerned" written all over it, which is never good. "If you keep this up, you'll soon disappear into thin air dear!", Mummy said.
So lately, my health has been a major issue.
Or more like, my eating habits. Lately, the one line I've heard people saying a lot is, "You've lost so much weight!". Of course, I've no idea whatsoever. I mean, I feel fine. I don't feel thinner. I still see my stomach. I eat. I look the same. I feel the same. I still crave for certain food at certain hours.
But, there are the other issues. Like, my clothes don't fit me as good as they used to. My pants are really slipping off my waist now, & it never used to. I don't like most of the food I used to like. My face looks thinner. My bones are starting to show a bit, at certain places. I can finally fit clothes that seemed to be too small before. My arms look smaller. I feel weaker than usual. I don't eat as much. I only drink mostly.
And worstly? I've lost 10 kgs. :S
Yeap, 10 motherchuckin' kgs! No, its not a good thing! Especially for someone my size. Im officially 32kgs now and IM NOT PROUD! I didn't even know this was happening to me! I don't know if this is happening due to physical or emotional reasons. Its just that ever since I was sick for two whole weeks back in August, my whole diet has just been wrong. I don't even feel like myself anymore.. I can honestly go a whole day without eating breakfast, lunch and even dinner. Just light snacks would be fine..
No, I am NOT doing this to myself.
Im soo not starving myself or anything to lose weight. Im so not those kinda girls, those girls make me sick. Its just that nowadays, with even the thought of food, I'd feel like puking. If I force myself to eat, I'd want to puke. If I do eat, I'd only finish half or less of what's on my plate because I just can't take anymore..
I can tell, my friends and family are getting worried. I nearly fainted in school the other day, but I didn't. Lee was constantly worried & he forced me to eat something. Harith & Leysha both bought me food & tried to convince me to eat. But finally, I only half a slice of chocolate cake. Which afterwards I felt like puking. Even my teachers, relatives, tuition friends & siblings have noticed my decrease in weight. I honestly don't know what to do anymore
Please help, anyone.
Ps/ I don't want to be bulimic. :S
| this is not good. |
"Aww baby. I feel soo bad for leaving you & Pei Wen,
Especially now when you're both so vulnerable!"
Especially now when you're both so vulnerable!"
Hey, Leysha.
Its okay, bestie. I agree that it totally utterly sucks to the core that you're leaving, especially now when I need you most in my life. Things have been so hard for me lately, & you, along with everyone else has been helping me cope with it and I couldn't be any more grateful.
Hey, Leysha.
You've been through more shit lately compared to me! Don't you dare feel bad, babe. You deserve this trip, you deserve to have fun, you deserve to forget, you deserve to laugh, smile & joke, you deserve a good time and you sure as hell deserve CUTE AUSSIE BOYS! *winks
Hey, Leysha.
I'll try to stay strong, I won't mope around. I know I need you most now but I can't be selfish! You deserve happiness too, & I hope one whole motherchuckin' week away from this place would make you feel so much better !
Hey, Leysha.
Do me a favour? Don't worry about PeiWen & me, we'll keep each other company & we'll save you all the stories, the gossip, the laughter, the tears and everything else! We can't wait for you to come back , & we just hope you'll come back happier. (:
Its okay, bestie. I agree that it totally utterly sucks to the core that you're leaving, especially now when I need you most in my life. Things have been so hard for me lately, & you, along with everyone else has been helping me cope with it and I couldn't be any more grateful.
Hey, Leysha.
You've been through more shit lately compared to me! Don't you dare feel bad, babe. You deserve this trip, you deserve to have fun, you deserve to forget, you deserve to laugh, smile & joke, you deserve a good time and you sure as hell deserve CUTE AUSSIE BOYS! *winks
Hey, Leysha.
I'll try to stay strong, I won't mope around. I know I need you most now but I can't be selfish! You deserve happiness too, & I hope one whole motherchuckin' week away from this place would make you feel so much better !
Hey, Leysha.
Do me a favour? Don't worry about PeiWen & me, we'll keep each other company & we'll save you all the stories, the gossip, the laughter, the tears and everything else! We can't wait for you to come back , & we just hope you'll come back happier. (:
WE LOVE YOU! ♥
Im so gonna miss this for a whole week! )':
Im so gonna miss this for a whole week! )':
Labels: friends, friendship, life